My sister fucking scares me.

You know that classic teen movie older sibling move where the wayward protagonist pisses of the older sibling and they run screaming after them how they’re gonna kill them. Yeah my sister does that to me. Only I don’t think it’s a fucking joke. I remember the time we were having fun playing halo and after I kept winning she got so made she rapped a blanket around my head and kept repeating “I’m going to kill you, I’m actually so angry I’m going to kill you” after that happened a few more times I’m at the point where I’m literally too scared to play video games with her. Yesterday in the car I was having one of those days where every little sound pissed me off. We were waiting for my mom to comeback from shopping and she was playing her god awful music again. I offered her my head phones and after she refused I got pissed and we got in a fight. She, again, said she would kill me and I dared her to. But being locked in an empty parking lot with a girl who is much stronger than me physically reminded me that she absolutely fucking could. She has a lot of mental stuff going on and refuses to get treatment even as our parents beg her to. She thinks I’m a horrible demon. I think she’d think she’d be doing the world a favor by getting rid of me. Some days I am genuinely scared to get in the car for her to drive me to school. She’s a safe and very good driver but I fully believe that she would swerve my side into oncoming traffic if I made her mad enough. She needs to be on medication or something. I walk on eggshells around her, any little thing I do might set her off. The worst is when she gets so angry that she smiles and laughs in this horrible uncomfortable way and pretends everything is fine. Then if she’s holding something I’ll she her slowly crush it. She’s a good Catholic girl who wouldn’t hurt a fly but I am not a fly and some days I genuinely fear for my wellbeing. Not that anyone would believe me, she’s so perfect and meek on the outside. And I feel crazy when she acts like a normal loving older sister, wanting to hang out with me or getting excited for me. I think she has BPD or maybe she’s an actual psychopath or something. I feel so fucking crazy.

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Elle Home September 07, 2025 at 8:57 pm 0 0