My Father Is A Crazy Stupid Idiot

I am 34 years old, I have Aspergers' Syndrome, I still have to live at home because I can't drive or manage money, and my dad makes me feel bad about myself and treats me like a stupid little kid! I have been under severe stress because my dad thinks little of me he thinks I won't achieve greatness because of my autism, and my grandmother has dementia so we had to move in and take care of her, which has been hard. I have never been married or dated anybody, and I am a romantic and I have been looking for true love, to save me from the hell I have been living in, and I wanted that time to be in my 20's! My sperm donor put me through hell, once we got into it, things got physical and he threw me on my bed and that was 9 years ago! He has also threatened suicide, which scared me, as my mom died 20 years ago and my dad is threatening to make me live with my manic, overbearing aunt in Florida, (see, I Know How To Live My Life), it hurts me when he thinks I will never be able to make it on my own and have a normal life like everyone else! I have complained about my situation on Quora, which helped a little. I have been taking blood pressure medicine, I think mainly the stress in causing me high blood pressure, I lost weight ten years ago, but because my stress is overwhelmingly crippling, having felt happy and free enough to exercise, and I gave in to comfort eating, and I don't think my Family Of Origin understands my situation! I feel angry towards them and if things don't change, God give me enough self control not to say, "Eat your hearts out, Jasmiyah and Tasmiyah Whitehead, Sarah Johnson, Jessica Wiseman, Bernie Tiede, Eric and Lyle Menendez, Ronald DeFeo Jr., and Lizzie Borden"! Trying to prevent from being the next True Crime story! I forgot to pack my blood pressure medicine only a few times, but I remember most of the time, but my dad is so fucking stupid he thinks he needs to remind me every time, when I am a smart competent adult who knows what to do, I guess I should expect this kind of treatment, being confined to his "care" which is really control! He says, "I want you to be healthy", well I want to be healthy too, it's your own toxic behaviors that are bad for my health, but you don't realize what you are doing, you think you are helping, well you are hurting me, he his trying to get guardianship over me which is really degrading, having to do what you say like I am a stupid little kid, I am not putting up with that, this was not my plan for my adult life! I am looking into suing my dad and my aunt for emotional distress pain and suffering,but I might not be able to do it, I have been seeing a therapist to deal with my problems for 13 years now! I am trying to reschedule my appointment with her and report the things my father and aunt are doing to me to teach them a lesson! There is a certain day when my prescriptions need to be refilled, and there was a severe misunderstanding, my dad verbally assaulted me in the car, he is stupid not to trust me, I got upset , me kept sadistically taunting me saying, you'll get a stroke and die" and my life is precious, you don't EVER remind me of my mortality, when I was 9 years old my mom freaked out one time when we were driving and the car door flew open, I was wearing my seat belt, but I think highly of myself not to let anybody bring up my mortality anymore, lest I tell my therapist you threatened my life, I could get vindictive like that, you know! My doctor upped the dosage so I started taking the new dosage and thought it would help, but now I have to start taking only one pill, he sadistically fools around with me like that to get a rise out of me, saying "you need to use more caution when taking your medicine, and I AM cautious, I just thought that was the correct dosage, I know taking more dosages can kill you, I feel you are threatening my life when you say that, YOU HAVE PUSHED ME TOO FAR, YOU MAKE ME FEEL STUPID AND I WON'T LET YOU MAKE ME FEEL STUPID ANYMORE!!!!!

My mother's family was good to me, they make me feel like a superstar, I feel cared about ny them and I don't see or hear from them anymore, at first only on Christmas, and I am trying to get back in contact with them, I need a loving family, not an abusive family!

Renee Pitelli's Luke 173 ministries, Steve Hein's, EQI.org, and Darlene Ouimet's Emerging Broken are the best websites to help you deal with Emotionally Abusive Family Members!

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Anna Home December 27, 2019 at 6:30 pm 0 0