lowkey

idrc if im not supposed to respond bc every time you say shit like that you js want me to shut up and take it. anyways ive noticed a pattern with this entire friend group every time someone makes a huge mistake it ties back to the same reason being mental health. but when im being avoidant bc of a chronic disorder its negligent? in that post i was really referring to nearly every single person in this friend group not just her. half of you have done smt horrible to me and yet we still got back together. you do realize that is the definition of a toxic friendship right?
i really do want to js let go of all of this because of how obsessive every thing is. most online friends dont even talk daily but that doesnt mean they dont like eachother? socialization feels draining now i dont find any joy in it. i dont like talking to anybody anymore and if we had just dropped eachother the first time we fell out and stayed apart this wouldnt have happened. when she first left i shouldn't have let her back in. when you did i shouldn't have. when she did the second and third time i shouldn't have. we fell out for good reasons and its not healthy to keep this cycle up. ik you think im a bitch for thinking that way but everyones too blinded from the little bit of entertainment we get from talking to realize it really should not be like this. if we let go well slowly improve and we won't feel like life support to eachother anymore. we wont be stressed over loosing eachother or worrying about when the next argument will be and itll feel more free. over all im thinking about this because ive noticed when i stop talking to you guys i forget abt all the previous pain and i feel like a different person. i cant really put my finger on it but something is very wrong with this and i know were all anxious and tired and need to get better

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honey Friends April 10, 2025 at 12:37 am 0 0