Lonely

I’m twenty years old, I shouldn’t feel so hopeless already, but I feel like I’m at my midlife crisis already. All my friends moved or got married at 18 . I was just left behind, the friends I have made since have gotten married and had kids already too. ( maybe it’s a religious thing , getting married so young) but now I’m alone. Found out my bf through high school was talking to other girls, and just wanted me for my looks. So I’ve been absolutely lonely and miserable for the past year. I just got my third job last week so now I’m working six days a week, some are 9 hours, 12 hours and on my five hour days I’m taking college classes for six ish hours. On Sundays is church, laundry and house cleaning ( and some meal prep for the week) I thought being busy would help me feel less lonely And left behind behind but it doesn’t. And sometimes friends reach out but only when they seem to need something from me or need me to be their therapist. It just really sucks. Because I just want friends to hang with or to start my own family but it seems impossible.

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Lia Relationships March 28, 2024 at 3:34 am 0 0