learned helplessness

eventually you just accept death and calamity. being called a narcissist by a narcissist, watching the love of your life destroy herself to make friends with someone who couldnt care less about her, being taught what it feels like to be intentionally burnt by a cigarette or beaten with a hardcover book at age 6. being laughed at when you get hurt at age 9 while your nephew is tenderly helped and coddled for getting hurt even less. all these things really teach you how insignificant you really are. i cant do anything to get out, can i? i just have to watch.
i get scolded for swearing like a sailor in my texts, but who do they think i learned that behavior from? it wasnt some stranger on the road, ill tell you that. i get in trouble for making stupid mistakes. literally i am punished because i have low intelligence and a mental disorder. in their eyes, a gifted child also should be an expert at anything and everything, academic or not. so mistakes of any category are totally unwelcome in my family (for me at least.. everyone else can do what they want). my aunt says im sheltered and emotionally neglected. and my TEACHER told me that, although nothing can be done on a legal level, i need to "move out at the first opportunity given". help please someone just help. i need to run away again and idc if my mom threatens me with the police.

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