just ranting

okay so, we've been dating for around 5 months up to now. recently, i've been getting a feeling of wanting a break or even breaking up. He doesn't seem to understand what my problem is when i talk to him and despite all his talk about changing for the better, he keeps making the same mistakes. for how much he says he loves me, i really only believe half of it.

i'll start with his most offensive problem which is not spending enough time with me. small as it may be, he understood coming into this relationship that i am someone who requires a lot of quality time. without quality time i feel unprioritized and not cared for. for instance, he plays a lot of games and usually i am okay with this as long as he tells me before. Yet, leaving me in the dark, questioning what he's doing for 2-3 hours makes me sad because it literally feels like i was forgotten. if you love your girlfriend so much you would think she wouldn't be forgotten about when you game. maybe i just don't understand why boys chose games over girlfriends.

second offending matter, my parent simply would never accept him. i feel like so many of my friends have this same issue where it just comes down to difference in social class and cultures, of which my parents would never accept.

he makes me incredibly happy at times and i hate the thought of having to start over. he is someone i can rely on sometimes, not all the times, when i'm having a bad day. but recently, he's been making the same mistakes over and over again, making me build a sense of resentment towards him. honestly, for how happy he makes me sometimes, the sad moments linger the longest. i should prob text him back now, i think i ignored him most of today because he was too busy gaming or hanging out with friends.

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anonymous Dating February 17, 2025 at 12:28 am 0 1