Ive spent another day on my bed.

I have things to do, i have nothing i want to do.

Im writing this anonymously becuse i dont want to bother my friends with it. I should just live but instead im just sitting. And its my choice to do so, so thers no need for help. I should not even write this its just here to waste your time, this text is pure evil you might not see why at first but, If im this kind of a person in normal everyday circumstances what kind of a person would i be in more extreme ones, i wonder. Than i wander if i can get from everyday circumstances to the more extraordinary ones are they than the same circumstance? And if they arent how do i jump from one to the other. I wont get to there if i follow my current routine i think, so maybe thats why i dont just get of bed. If i could just live and not just sit i would get to the extraordinary circumstances. The flipside is the first point where the the extraordinary and the ordinary are the same and there is no jump in between but a continuous ladder to climb. So just live, climb stop just sitting. Have i been sitting all along? I know i have climbed, so i havent been sitting all the time, and i forgot when is it that i stopped clibing precicely. Why would i stop anyway, expecially since i want to reach the top. Or do i not? In fact in the first senzence i wrote thers nothing i want to do, well as of... when?

Thers a quote from enders game "if you did all you could and you still fail its not your fault, but if you did not and failed its all your fault."
Have i not given my everythig all the time? Am i giving my everything now just sitting? Maybe i never stopped maybe i just slowed down but never went the full speed ahead and maybe thats impossoble too since you get tired, anf the ladder maybe isnt straightforward but its more of a poligon with many branching pathways all leading god knows where i hope or hope not.

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Ghbhujhg Other April 04, 2025 at 12:20 pm 0 0