idk what to do

i always feel like my parents hate me but i always at the same time feel like i am making it seem that way. i cant tell if im gaslighting myself into thinking my parents hate me and that i am overreacting but it has felt this way for years and i genuinely dont know what to do. i overheard a conversation between my mom and dad and i heard my mom say that since i am pulling good grades she can handle me and my dad didnt really comment on it, but he is always holding back a ton of stuff because he is too nice to say it. i usually like school and it is my escape from the house because i know my friends actually like me but i never know with my actual family. and i dont really show i love them because i dont want to love them anymore, because then it all just hurts more, but i still love them even though i dont want to. i usually can just shake this off but i just always fuck up around them and after all of this time it is just too much. i felt my mental health declining like 5 months ago, and i thought i got it back but now im not sure. and i dont have a therapist or anyone i can talk to about this and trust, so this felt nice just doing it anonymously, and if u stayed to read all of this thank you <3

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anonymous Home April 05, 2026 at 5:10 pm 2 0