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I love my parents i really do but they keep doing things that make me think they hate me. that their love for me in continjent on the fact i never grow outside of them. i cant do this. how am i supose to live here when they keep forcing their poltics on me i cant keep doing this. so i exploded and now they are ignoring me i know thye can hear me crying this house echos, how can they hear my hyperventlate and ignore me how can they do that to me, do they not love me? all i do is keep the peace i hug them when i dont want to i tell them i love them when im angry i just put in headphones when they listen the news so i dont have to hear it.
im still a teenager why cant they just respect me. they arent the only ones that have to live here how could they do this and not even consider me. their children?!?!
my mum is just sitting there watching movies and hes outside probably doing exactly what i said i hated. am i not good enough? do i not have value or feelings?
i think they are going to yell at me. i would prefer that than silence. at least they apologise after. i dont want to keep doing this.
my friend messaged me asking if i was ok but i didnt say anything. i dont know why they hate me so much; i do everything to make sure they are happy and they keep looking at me like im crazy. he laughed in my fucking face he thought it was funny that i was upset by this.
i dont want to keep doing this, how is my 15 yr old sister the only one to check on me why is she the only one who loves me why does everyone want me to be in pain. i dont know what to do. eveything makes it worse. i cant fo this
ive been crying for 2 hours this is ridiculous. i just want to be treated like im human.

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Harper Home April 06, 2025 at 2:37 am 2 0