I should be better

I'm grateful for the life I have. I know I'm a lucky person and I have things I should be happy for. I try to be grateful and look forward to what is next, it's very difficult. Today I told a friend if mine my routine and that friend told me it's not healthy. Even asking if I was depressed, idk how seriously it was meant. But the whole conversation made me realize how absurd the things I do sound, actually it dose even sound pretty depressing thinking about it a little. I don't really hate life and I care enough to still get up in the morning and to know I have good things. At the same time tho I have a sick feeling. Once a while ago family member asked if I was depressed and I denied it so much, I'm sure I can be happy if I try so I don't know if it's depression exactly and I don't want make others worry especially if It's really nothing. I feel such a loser even just thinking about how things have gotten for me. I really did think this horribleness and this fuckass routine would end in no time.

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anonymous Other March 11, 2026 at 10:20 pm 0 0