I need to move on

I can't even believe I sat there and let me ex manipulate me like that, and yet I still miss him..omg this is hella annoying I shouldn't have gave him even half of things I did. I tried to work and grow for our relationship and he didn't. I asked for communication. And all he did was go to his home boys and copy and pasted things THEY were saying then sent it my way acting like it was his own words. Then he had the audacity to first say he messed up and is a shitty person who doesn't deserve me to switching up in front of his friends to he did nothing wrong Its not fair I found all those text where he was just disrespecting me and letting others disrespect me. I was his girlfriend and he was treating me like some random fling he couldn't care less about. He never fought for me never stood for me. I was never sure if he ever truly cared and he said he did but his actions proved otherwise. And once again I still cant help but miss him. But really the feelings he used to give me when we first started talking. The late night walks around the dorms, going out to eat wherever I wanted. Laying down together kissing and cuddling and watching movies. Teasing each other. And even when I tried to restart he didn't even care to do that I don't understand what I did wrong and even when I asked he had nothing to say. I have so much to say and on one hand I wish he was here so we could lay side by side and talk about random things late into the night before falling asleep in each other's arms. but then I want to yell at you and call you out on all your bullshit you put me through. I cant wait for these feelings to go away.

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anonymous Relationships January 30, 2025 at 3:11 am 0 1