Feeling like crap

Decided to share some pictures with my friends of firemen doing training because I found it interesting. Both of them didn't understand why I'd shared them. So I said I shared them because I found it interesting. The way they reacted...made me feel like I was a really dull, boring, stupid person. I'm autistic (they both are too) and I just started blaming myself for being boring and getting excited over dull things. Even though I really don't think there was anything dull about it. And yet, whenever they get excited about something, all I feel is happiness for them. I feel honoured that they feel like they can share their special interests with me because I never judge them, I never think they are boring. But I never get the same thing back. All I get is judgement and "Errr...ok?" I really think I need some new friends. I thought other autistic people would be better, more understanding friends than neurotypicals but having no luck so far. Maybe I'm just too weird for anyone. I find that animals are much better company these days.

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Anonymous Friends January 30, 2025 at 4:15 pm 1 0