i miss my kakak

it's been almost 2 years without you, kak. i miss you more every day. you're just a huge part of me that i will hold onto for my whole life, and i'm grateful for that. i wouldn't be the person i am today without you. honestly, every time i'm sad, i remember all those days you were there for me. and i just never noticed it. only did after you're gone. i was so fucking ungrateful. every time i was down, you were always there to pick me up. when i achieved something, you were happier than i was about it. i don't know what i did for God to send you into my life, but i wouldn't trade you for the world. i hope one day i can visit your grave in indonesia, and bring you your favourite flowers. every time i hear your favourite songs on the radio, my heart clenches a little. cus i can hear your voice singing along. even in church, when your favourite worship songs are being sung by the choir, i knew you'd sing even louder than them if you were here. i just miss you so much kakak. i hope....i hope you know how much i truly love you. even though i was immature and had hurt you a lot in the past, but i truly deep down...i couldn't live without you. but here i am....doing it. people always ask the question, "who's the love of your life?" and they'd usually answer their romantic partner. however, my answer is, without a doubt, you, kak. you were the love of my life....and always will be.

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nadacinta Relationships June 04, 2026 at 9:19 am 0 0