i lost my virginity at 13

i fell in love with my best friend's younger brother. when we first started dating in oct of 2018, i was 13 and he just turned 12. he and his sister (that's my best friend) dont have the greatest relationship. before we started dating, i always thought he was kinda cute. he was good at football, playing games, and is super funny but he can be annoying and mean. we both started developing feelings and thoughts about dating at his 12th birthday party in oct.

i had been stuck on an older ex that i had dated from april - may of 2018. my ex and my boyfriend had met in the spring as well so they knew of each other. my ex still had feelings for me and i did too so we talked through the summer until school started. he went to high school and i was left in 8th grade. i slowly lost feelings for him even though he'll always be my first love.

me and my boyfriend went to the halloween dance together as mickey and minnie mouse. my parents didn't know we were dating. so i saw him outside of school in secret and used excuses like, i was going to hang out with my best friend at her house but really i went to their house and hanged out with my boyfriend. eventually november came and the more that my boyfriend came around with my best friend, my mom got suspicious. my stepmom and dad found out i was dating in late november but they didnt really care. in december, my dad and stepmom met my boyfriend but my mom still hadnt found out we were dating. i didnt want to tell her because she want me to date but she lets all my brothers.

in december i had lost my virginity to my boyfriend. we were only together for 2 months at the moment. i have never had my period either so we had unprotected sex at his house. my best friends kind of interrupted the first time by trying to come in the room but the door was locked so then they knew what we were doing and demanded me to come out because i had told them that i was having doubts and i was. i was only 13. i had never gotten my period. i am a honor student and president of the student council of my school. idk why i lost it to him. im pretty sure i wanted to. mostly i just wanted him to be happy with me because i dont think im that beautiful. im basically flat chested and have no ass. im very underweight at 85-90 lbs in 8th grade. he would always ask for nudes and when i didnt send any, he would say i didnt love him and stuff. then i would feel bad but i dont want to think of him as a bad person.

anyways after the sex multiple times at his house, we went to my place. me, my 2 best friends and my boyfriend were dropped off at my house and had a sleep over. we all slept in my room. the next day my mom and step dad left the house to go to a funeral. i had cooked pancakes for my siblings, boyfriend and best friends. then we watched movies and played monopoly.

my mom came home at noon. i wanted to put make up on my boyfriend until he chickened out and went upstairs to use the bathroom. a few minutes later, my younger brother came downstairs to get me because my mom needed me. i went upstairs and saw my boyfriend on one of the couch with my mother on the other end of the couch. i sat next to my boyfriend. my 2 younger brothers sat next to my mother. my mother started out calm telling me that at the funeral her brothers and sisters (my aunts and uncles) were talking about me dating my boyfriend and bringing him to family events. (last weekend, i had brought him to my cousins birthday and then he slept over at my house that night) basically in the end she yelled at me and him for being in a relationship and that it was wrong. that he should be like a little brother to me. she sent him to my brothers room and i was sent to my room. when i went upstairs for something, my mom had yelled at me for being a desperate, stupid girl. she told me that he was just a play boyfriend and that he has no value to me because i hadnt told her about us. i told her that he wasnt a play boyfriend and that i loved him. my mother screamed at me saying that i was a disappointment and a desperate slut for bringing him to sleepover and not telling her that we were in a relationship. i just went to my room not listening to her hurtful words anymore.

i cried a lot and my boyfriend cried too..

should i write a part 2?

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anonymous Relationships March 09, 2019 at 10:44 pm 1 5