I keep forgetting to flush the toilet

I don't know why I do, but I keep forgetting to flush the toilet. Sometimes it gets blocked up. Each time I forget, someone in my family (either my mum, dad or sister) comes and reminds me to do it or they start shouting at me/lecturing me about it, calling me disgusting, saying I act like a baby, asking me how I'll get on at university living with other people if I can't even flush the toilet, etc. I fucking hate it. I hate them telling me what to do and lecturing me. I'm 17 years old, not 7. It's not my fault that I forget. Maybe I would remember if they didn't keep reminding me and talking about it. I don't know if it's related but I have anxiety, depression, probably adhd and possibly other mental illnesses too. I don't like them telling me what to do because I don't respect them and I don't want them to act as my parents. They abused me while I was growing up. I don't want to hear them trying to teach me anything. It's stressful. Maybe, subconsciously, I'm not flushing it to annoy them because I don't respect them or something after everything they've done to me, because I know for a fact I won't forget to flush it at university as I never forget at other peoples houses. It infuriates me how they don't realise that maybe I'm not flushing it because of mental illness, which they have fucking contributed to, and that I'm not flushing it at home because I don't fucking respect them because they're fucking horrible people.

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anonymous Home April 07, 2021 at 12:39 pm 0 0