I just want peace

The tags I used are really contradictory but after many years I finally have a will to live. I always thought about death, on a daily basis so much that I was concerned, but this week I felt that even if I don't have a set goal I want to live, not worried about suicidal thoughts, but the thing is that due to attending a lot of schools as a student I never made friends that I can call a bestie, but honestly now that I am at a place I don't need to do frequent moving, I guess I'll get some. My mom said I was way too naive and now that I think it she isn't wrong, I was. I loved helping others, maybe too desperate for friends but recently I've realized, due to this incident where this one girl that asked me few project related questions for her sake and when I went to say what was on my mind she blatantly ignored. I'm not even sad anymore I'm pissed that this is the 4th person who did exactly the same. I've realized that I don't need to desperately make friends, they'll come naturally to me and I hope for the best. It feels good to share it somewhere. Have a good day everyone and you're doing your best <3

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Jayjay Friends April 17, 2024 at 6:52 am 0 0