i hate myself

man i've been prepping for jee for about 2 yrs but atp i can't do it anymmmore the exama is in 2 days and my prep is dogshit.I'm a general male and have been in a regular school with online coaching and my parents have naturally high hopes from me since i a a gifted child and since my elder sis also did extremely well in her life idk wut to do i feel horrible.i procrastinated soo much and now regret it .my mental state is horrible and i've tried my best as soon as i got my 47percentile in first attempt.but i cana't seem to remeber anything even n 12th even though i wrote my boards recently and am expecting 95percent in them and have been writing them wonderfully no clue wut to do i just fuckin hate myself..
my friend got 99.6 in his first attempt he worked waay hrder than me i just cudn't seem to do so.
maybe coz i always cud study ezyzly and score well with minimal study as a child.
i've tired myself out and cant study more.i can't seem to sit for more than 4ish hrs to study and feel dizzy or hella tired after sitting for so long but now that my jee is so close i'm fucked and can't seem to do anything.

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jeeaspirant School March 31, 2025 at 11:50 am 1 0