i hate myself

i literally am so alone right now i feel like everyone hates me. i can tell my mom hates me because anytime she comes near me she has something rude. i actually cant be at school anymore i hate everyone there and everyone hates me. i know there are only 3 weeks left but it feels forever away. im so fucking ugly because i have glasses. everyone hates me because all the other girls in my grade are absolutely stunning and then there's me. i can tell all of my friends think im ugly too. one time we had a sleepover and we all went in a circle and said who we wished we looked like out of our friend group and not one person said me, they all said each other. there are literally only 4 of us. our names are audrey, siana, mya, and lucy (me). siana said mya, mya said audrey, audrey said siana, i said audrey. mya went last and while she was choosing who to say audrey whispered 'mya, say lucy' and mya said 'ew no. why would i want to look like that rat.' and i know she was joking but some part of me feels like she wasn't. every time i look in the mirror i just remember how ugly i am. i hate myself and my life. i don't want to be alive anymore.

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lucy Friends May 14, 2025 at 8:09 pm 1 0