i hate my boyfriend

we started dating in january last year again. we already dated a year before and broke up after he cheated on me with 6 different girls and more over text. safe to say i was a bit of a fucking retard and decided to date him again. but things changed. HE changed. but instead of being so careless about me, it turned into compulsive control as i was not allowed to talk to any boy at all even if they was gay or sat next to me in class. i had strict rules and je would lash out at me when i didnt reply to his message within 3 minutes even if he just texted to say fuck you or get naked like he usually does. he wont text me all day and then randomly say sometjing and expeft me to reply straight away. he has dead replies. he never speaks to me with love. i fucked up in our relationship which caused him to act this way, but it jappened last year and he brings it up every day. my ex asked to talk to me after his dad was sent to hospital as he suffers from many illnesses and being the csring person i am i added him back and he confided in me about how he feels about his dad. we wss mever sexual. we didnt send nudes. and I was the cheater???? when i got the bus home there was a guy i used to date 3 YEARS AGO that got on the same bus because we live close and HE GOT MAD AT ME BECAUSE I GOT ON THE SAME BUS AS HIM????? he is on 4 different private girl accounts on instagram and im not even allowed to say hi to a gay guy i was friends with. hes a fucking joke. yes i messed ip but this is getting rediculous. i never started a single argument even when i found out a girl i was friends with in primary school was secretly dating my boyfriend and would chat shit wbout me. to make it worse, i got her snapchat and i asked her to send me all tje screenshots of their chats and it turned out that she double backstabbed me and he in fact knew about the whole thing. i cant take tjis sjit anymore. i have cut myself because of ot over and over and i still csmt leave him. i dont know what compells me to stay because he utterly makes me feel useless and calls me his sex slave.

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anonymous Dating April 17, 2024 at 7:05 am 0 0