Same here.

You know it seems to me school prepared me for life perfectly in the sense that you could turn in a test with 99 answers right, and the only answer the teacher would draw any attention to with her bitchy little red pen was the one answer you got wrong. It's exactly like that in daily life, still, and I'm middle aged now!

You can host parties and give gifts and check in with people and hear them out when they need an ear, and in the moment you're politely thanked. But then if someone doesn't get a text back at the moment they expect it, or they find out you go to a different kind of doctor than the one they use, or you have higher expectations of your ridiculously expensive apartment than they think you should have, all of a sudden the rest all goes away and you're just a piece of shit. It's garbage.

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anonymous 7 months ago

same here again different anon: im always the problem and never allowed to be given a decent apology for the way people overact towards things i say obviously im going to keep going on and on about it bwcause theyre soulless beings who dont give a fuck about me, they always say they care but in their eyes i can see its blank when im in the room as they are. i cant even escape to my own property because im not allowed one. im not allowed a career cause people will ruin it for me, im not allowed friendships because people are trying to isolate me from anyone else. im supposed to be emotionaless as everyone else is. cant vent how i feel because they dont care. nobody does. i just wanna go to a time where i didnt exist and tell my younger self to die in the womb my existsnce is so pointless and meaningless

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anonymous 7 months ago