I don t belong here

I don't belong at this dumbass school. I thought I picked the right university. I've never been so utterly miserable in my entire life. No one here understands me or has a remotely compatible personality with me. Everyone here commutes which was not something that was known to myself or anyone else I've met living on campus, angry as well. I hate everyone I've met and I absolutely cannot stay here any longer. Everyone comes here to study to get paid to work to die. No one is interested in having fun. Everyone stays in their room watching tik tok for hours on end. There is more to life than that. Everyone causes drama all the time, and no one is happy. I cry at least twice a day. I hate my roommates and haven't spoken to them since October. I miss all my friends from home and I want it to be summer. I am so lonely, I have struggled so much to find friends and often end up in the dining hall alone. I am so used to being extroverted and making friends easily, but everyone here thinks life is about getting a degree, and waiting for the weekends to get drunk, and repeat. I recently visited my best friend's school and I fell in love. People go camping on the weekends and try and find new things to do, and they're all incredibly smart, and have a real sense of humor. I sometimes think that this a consequence of having so much fun in high school. I am genuinely afraid that I peaked in high school, and now I'm at this lame ass school because I spent all my time living in the moment. I'm scared I'll never be able to be happy again. It feels like every week gets worse and worse. I'm not even taking relatively interesting classes. I am not taking a single engineering class this term, and I'm taking the most boring gen eds. If I had wanted to take a class in econ, I would've majored in business. I feel so lied to, college is nowhere near the best time of your life, it's definitely the worst.

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anonymous School January 27, 2020 at 11:31 pm 0 0