i can't wait

To get back to normal. Will my life ever get back to normal? I wanted to attention of ONE woman so many many years ago and got attention from people i hate and find repulsive. I few accounts i didn't take down. Some i didn't make private to screw with the assholes prying into my personal life. but as always everything gets misconstrued because people are fucking stupid as shit. I was bullied constantly as a kid and im not an attention-seeker by nature anyway because the environment I grew up in was full of aggressively mean, mean spirited, wicked, sadistic ghetto shit-tards. Where drawing their attention meant certain torment and the tracks laid down for one of the many insecurities that would follow me into adulthood and now middle age. I would give anything to be ignored. I dont even need reciprocated affections. I would prefer to be left alone above all else! Women are not worth it! I dont mean that in a misogynistic way. NOBODY is worth the troubles I have had to endure. I want my normal life back. Not noticed and not bothered. A random person that can be counted on. I dont mind when people have a hard time remembering my name the first couple of weeks, but everything else is positive. Nothing but positve feedback about me because nobody has decided to disrespect or cross boundaries or try and get me to spin out of control. I MISS it. I wasnt on some insecure, possessive, small peen having males radar. Nothing to see. Nothing to watch or monitor. Just a rando. Fingers crossed i can recapture what, i didnt realize at the time, was actually fucking magical.

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