I can’ t sleep for no reason whatsoever

So I promised myself I’d go to sleep after ten. My room’s a mess. I was perfectly calm when I fell asleep. Then all my thoughts started to spiral up and down. I started to make wishlists from scratch out of nowhere because I got overly excited for a room makeover, a style change and high quality art supplies on my list. I am now at a point where I start to wonder about random sad things that cause me to spiral down on a deeper level that only my sister seems to know about. If one other important person knew, and multiple who are lesser known by me or vice versa, they’d be scared of my vision on this exact topic. I sometimes get overly suicidal when this comes up in my mind because I think the general public is ‘right’ about it and I should probs disappear permanently if anyone other than my sister were to find out. It’s probably because I’ve been awake for so long. I need to sleep, I know alright? But my mind is pretty much awake.

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anonymous Other July 20, 2025 at 8:04 pm 0 0