How the fuck am I supposed to manage this all

I work a full-time job for no money. I have 40 hour work weeks pretty much every week and I don't get a dime for it. In fact, I often have to give my work money. What dystopian society do I live in? My junior year of high school. How the flying FUCK am I supposed to juggle all the FUCKING assignments and study work I'm given on a daily basis and still supposed to have a life. On a GOOD day I have about 3 hours of freetime when I finish all my work. I am not in any clubs and I do not work. 3 hours REALLY isn't a lot considering I'm often pushing it to 0 hours of free time. In fact, I'm avoiding a bullshit essay as I type this in hopes that it will all go away. Now, I was never into sports or clubs but every time an adult brings it up, they make me feel like the biggest piece of shit for not doing either. "well when I was 16 I would study for an hour a day, practice football for 2 hours and on the weekends I would sweep the local barbershop for an extra couple dollars!" and they act like thats the fucking standard for everybody. "you're just not trying hard enough!" shit man, my fault how dare I sleep and try to have friends. "if you don't do any volunteer or extra-curricular activities, it wont look good to colleges!" ok? and who said I was going to college? it costs (on average) about $27,000 for a four year school which, in case you haven't noticed, is not exactly cheap. I mean that was like a really nice car 15 years ago but now it's barely a car. and also why does the economy get fucked as soon as it's my turn to start being an adult? If shit doesn't get better I will never be able to afford a place near where I currently live. And I'm always being pressured into knowing what I want to be in the future. Why do I have to KNOW right now? Excuse me for not wanting to immediately hop into the meat grinder that is a dead-end job. I don't think I have a dream job. I think (realistically) there is not a single activity i would enjoy taking time away from me and enjoying my life. Like, I honestly can't picture myself above the age of 30 and happy. My future is bleak and my present is bleak and my past really isn't sunshines and rainbows either. also fuck trump and I'm mad I didn't get a say in the fuckin matter.

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anonymous School February 05, 2025 at 9:10 pm 1 0