Honeymoon

My ex wife and i had our honeymoon at Chuck E Cheese.

It was funny at first when we got there, and became more pathetic as the night went on. Kind of made it clear we were adult children, and not people with humor or spirit and heart like the woman Tom Hanks liked on Big.

It was basically the point where neither of us could lie about the state of our relationship. We never loved each other. We went out to keep from being alone, but never really felt whole while together.

Thoughout our relationship we would engage in milktoast activities and never really connected. We got along with the civility and distance acquaintances have in an elevator or on an airplane. Bland roadtrips or spending the weekend at ones apartment means nothing when theres not any emotional/intellectual intimacy

But because we didnt yell at each other or be horrible like the people from our pasts, it must have meant something because it was a step up. So after a year and a half we got engaged, and here i was on my wedding night having a moment of clarity when i handed my spouse a clear green ring i won for her. The teenager working had a look that said everything as they clearly couldnt wait to be away from me and my spouse. It WAS pathetic that we were doing this.

Got divorced. Amicable thankfully. I havent talked to her. I dont miss her. I felt more sadness for the idea of a relationship failing, than actually no longer having this person in my life.

Still reading? Dont get married.

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anonymous Relationships November 12, 2024 at 7:46 pm 0 0