hate not being good enough at art

i’ve been drawing since i was extremely young, and been drawing digitally for around 5 yrs now. over the years, i’ve obviously improved significantly over the years, but i still can’t help but feel i haven’t gone far enough with art, and i’m spitting out absolute dogshit with my work. i’ve always focused on more stylized drawings, and to a level, i AM good, compared to many artists out there anyway. recently, i’ve been trying to learn realism, to make fanart of real people and overall feel better about myself. on social media, i always see really awesome drawings of the people i want to draw, and i am obviously jealous of the artists’ skill. the thing that frustrates me the most is the age range of those incredibly talented artists, because their age is always so close to mine, and that makes me feel awful. i know that skill ≠ age, but it makes me think, ‘what have these people done in their lives that i haven’t?’ it makes me ashamed of how i spent my years of drawing. i practice using other people’s works and study their rendering techniques and art styles. i don’t know if it does any good for my skills, but it sure as hell destroys my confidence, because i know that i’ll never draw that way on my own. that, and constantly comparing myself to everyone better than me is so, so infuriating, and it makes me want to end it — both my art career, and myself, sadly.

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anonymous Other June 21, 2025 at 8:43 pm 0 0