Fucking anxious if every little fucking thing

Fuck my fucking life, i cant continue living like this, being so afraid of fucking trying, of failing, of fucking anything. I can't fucking function normally, I keep believing in my own fucking delusions that I can fucking change the fucking course of fate. I can't stop believing in it and I keep trying to make myself stop but I keep seeing evidences that whatever I fucking say or believe in, happening so, am I being stupid or am I just really predicting my own fucking future and I'm never fucking wrong about my prediction about myself and that's why I keep getting fucking anxious because if I'm never wrong, and I have this feeling things will go wrong, it DOES go fucking wrong. It happens, without a fucking fail. It makes me feel embarrassed and fucking stressed because that's all I'm constantly thinking about until my prediction fucking passes and I feel so fucking insane for thinking like this and I don't know how to stop or to fucking get help and I'm so uncomfortable in my own fucking body because my brain just won't shut the fuck up about it. It's like force-feeding me these self-destructive thoughts that I'm useless and a failure, will fail consistently and there's nothing better for me, and the only way it shuts itself up is if I believe in my predictions that are for some reasons, genuinely always right, I never fucking get it wrong and that's why I get so fucking upset. I can't stop thinking about it and it makes me feel so miserable, nothing makes it stop until that thing gets over. I keep repeating myself over and over because it keeps ringing in my head again and again, I want fucking help but I know that if I were to tell anyone about this, the repetition would fucking drive them away and fuck, please, someone, help me please, make this shit stop, make it fucking go away.

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anonymous Other January 25, 2026 at 9:40 am 0 0