Fml

My school has a mandatory last-year research paper for all. My fucking ass is a pro-procrastinator. My research requires a questionnaire. I did not kid myself with the thought of sharing it to the lower-grades—I know no one. So I thought, well, it should be easier if I only sent it to my fellow year mates? But apparently I severely underestimated how much my general apathy (reluctance to reach out and make new friends-connection's), difficulty in remembering names-faces, and general anxiety-unwillingness about other’s thoughts would affect my responses. It’s been five days, and I’ve barely scraped twenty out of 220. Oh, and the due date’s… well, better not to say (that one’s my fault for procrastinating). It’s my fault, but I hate hate hate thinking about what others think of me when I talk to them, because I know that I have this weird struggle at emotional empathy unless I hear details and somehow picture myself in their place, and it’s been to the point that the only people I trust is my direct family— and even then, perhaps only my younger brother knows me most. I plan to somehow magically summon my nonexistent social ability in my next school, but I have a feeling that that’s not going to be true.

---

anonymous School December 27, 2025 at 9:18 am 0 0