FEELS LIKE I DONT KNOW WHO I AM

these days i think a lot about it than anything else. i dont know who i am- who i like, who i wanna be like, what i do etc. i feel like the entire cause of sufferings is maybe not knowing who you are. i am bisexual. i fell in love with a girl about 6 years ago. haven't felt like that before, maybe because she was kind of my first love. have dated 1 man seriously after him, got majorly heartbroken. am dating another guy rn and i think despite our incompatibilities, he is sort of the only person who has loved me this deep. i feel torn genuinely, because our expectations, thinking, behaviour doesn't align yet he loves me a lot and i love him too. but i feel like a part of me still loves the girl i fell in love with. we cant be gay because society will genuinely kill us but yeah i wish i could spend my life with her. i just wanna make her happy and keep her healthy and give her all the happiness in the world. the fact that someone else will do these things for her someday makes me jealous. i am also jealous of girls who want my current bf tho. but yeah

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khushi Other July 05, 2026 at 5:17 pm 1 0