College sucks

I hate college. Obviously not really socially, I'm doing fine in that aspect. Everyone always told me "College is what you make it" but I have no idea WHAT to make it.

I hate my major. I love music, so I chose a major in Jazz performance, but I hate... and I mean HATE every single class I'm in. Especially the music ones. I never feel inclined to do any of the music homework, instead I play whatever I damn please, come back to class and just wing it. Lol.

I want to change my major, I have no other desires in life but to play music, but in Trump's economy I HAVE to have a "professional" job in order to be comfortable in life. I know that I need a degree, even if people want to tell me I don't, I do. I need to go through college... unfortunately.

I was thinking of changing it to journalism since I went out of my way in highschool to be in the yearbook class. I even ended up the leader of the whole yearbook class. It was nice, it was fun, but my heart belongs to music hence why I chose music. But I regret choosing music. College has kind of tainted my passion for music, my passion for life, my passion for anything other than getting fucked up at a party... LOL.

I feel I have no sense of identity anymore. It's so bad, I start day dreaming that maybe I should just rely on a man to live comfortably. But I don't want to do that. That's not satisfying enough. I want more from life.

I'm only four months into college by the way. Four months is all it took for me to question every sure desicion I ever made. It sucks... but whatever I guess.

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anonymous School November 03, 2025 at 1:48 am 0 0