can i be enough?

my boyfriend and i have recently become long distance. he went home of mental health, & now lives 8 hours away from me. it has been hard as i wasn’t adamant on wanting a relationship in the first place. & now i feel like he isn’t putting in a lot of effort. and i feel very lonely. it is hard because i got out of a 2 year long relationship recently, which is why i didn’t want to start dating again. i feel in love w my now boyfriend . but now i just feel even more alone. what really got me was when i ordered some clothes (spicy) for a trip we are going on soon. i wanted to show him & suprise him to make him exctied. and he looked at the camera told me i looked good then went back to playing video games. i said oh well it’s not good enough to get some of your attention. and he said it was because he couldn’t pause the game. and loosing to this guy who already sucked would be really embarrassing. i get a lot of my confidence from guys (which is a different story, and something i’ve been working on too). but this really brought me down. i always want to make my boyfriend happy, & make him excgied for things. i bought these clothes for him because he said he liked them. i feel kind of alone, and i just feel lost. i’m not really sure what to do, as i feel like i am not getting a lot of gratification. i just feel that i am just there… and that is pretty much it.

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anonymous Dating May 07, 2024 at 11:54 pm 1 1