An Open Letter To My Crush

Dear Crush,

It feels odd calling you that, since a "crush" doesn't even capture a fraction of the depth of my true feelings for you. I realize you can't figure out who a person is from a mere first name but, I value your privacy, so I won't even use that.

It's funny because "crush" is the exact word I used when I confessed my feelings to you. I told you I liked you and I was very open and honest and expressive and I made it clear that I liked you a lot but, if you only knew that, as expressive as I was, I held so much back.

I told you I liked you, but I didn't tell you that I loved you. Well, I do. I love you. I realize that a lot of people throw the "I love you" phrase around like it's nothing but, I can assure you, I've thought it and I've overthought it. I can think of a million reasons not to love you, but I love you in spite of them all. And I'm a bold dreamer and I tend to overromanticize things a lot but I'm being quite realistic here. I've thought about this and I know I mean it. I'm not being swept away by another one of my childish whims. I'm being completely, entirely, and wholly serious. I love you and I mean it.

I shouldn't though. I shouldn't love you. You don't love me. I told you I liked you and you said you didn't feel the same. I should have moved on... But I couldn't because I love you. And real feelings don't just "go away" Here you are, not reciprocating my feelings, while I am heartbroken. I should have moved on but I don't know how. I love you... isn't that the dumbest thing you've ever heard?

But because I love you, I can let go. See, the thing is, when you really love someone, you just want what's best for them - even if it doesn't include you. I want you to be happy, no matter what. If you would be happier single than with me... so be it. Or if you would be happier with another girl than with me... so be it. I just want what's best for you.

It's okay, I can be sad. I can be miserable and lonely in my unrequited love... I don't mind. As long as you're okay, I'll be happy too. That's all that matters.

Please, please, please, be okay.

That's all I want.

Yours Truly,

The girl who adores you one-sidedly ♡

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anonymous Crushes October 28, 2022 at 12:13 am 0 0