"Tired" she says.

Sometimes it's hard doing anything. My mother doesn't want to take me anywhere, not to school, not to work, not to another job and not even my birthday party. She says she's always tired from work but she can just take me can't she? what the fuck is the excuse "this is why you should learn how to drive" oh yeah? with what. With no car? You say you're too tired after work to even take me driving too. Who's really at fault too? Everything is my fault now. "You don't listen" you don't either? Why are you trying to deflect when I've spoken to you so many times and you don't even listen to me because you're busier on the phone or watching TV. Sometimes I can't even find the will to speak to you. So you're not happy I just got another job? Are you happy about anything related to me? I passed two of my assignments, would you even say 'congrats'? You blame me for so many things but I don't even have the oppertunities to do them. Relating back to my birthday party, you keep shutting down my suggestions because the place is 'too far'. It's my birthday. So you're not willing to take me there but you're willing to take me to the city because it's closer, huh? "Just do a dinner with your friends" I've always had dinners with them. Dinners are way more expensive than paying for a single activity. We spent almost a thousand on my birthday last year, now you won't even let me pay a measly $200 for 10 people? I don't understand. Sometimes it hurts to know you choose work than things for me. I know you work almost every day but you won't even do anything as small as dropping me off to a party? You make me not want to have a party at all AND make me want to quit the job. I've lost my appetite. Who said anything about being maids and lazy? So I'm lazy because I wan't to go to work? Why don't you make sense. Then I remember why I was so desperate to just cut. Because of you. Should I not even be happy for my birthday in five days? It does matter to me. If you could be nicer. I don't know.

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