WISHING I COULD BE MUTE

I know being mute or deaf is not a flex to begin with. But in my case, i just wish i couldn't even speak or hear other people's voices. Whenever I speak to them I'm either wrong, do not belong, doesn't matter, or even felt like i wasn't even worth to exist. I am suffocating at my house right now, because of the people here. Everyone felt like i didn't matter so whenever i became mad over their actions that caused me to dislike it - they'd act like they really didn't want me in their life. It's like one reflection of mine to that particular dislike action of theirs or anything that'll make me not happy is NOT VALID to them. It's just disrespectful for them to not even sense that something could be inconvenient from what they're doing. The only thing that keeps me from being that really rage is my mom. I couldn't leave her. I won't. I am the only one left for her.

If I could be muted or deaf then I wouldn't raise my voice at them or even hear them whispering their hatred to me.

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jann Home April 16, 2024 at 9:10 am 1 0