WI, Mar, Heb, Sbury. A problem with gossip.

It seems no matter what strides I make in life to better myself, no matter what accomplishments theirs always someone to remind me of a incident that happened over 20 years ago as if their life never went past that or that "Your doing good, just not that good."

It has not been the best year for me, lost a lot.

This is usually done by someone gossiping loud enough for me to hear or saying and running, so I will debunk some, give my rebuttles and move on.

"I could beat him in a fight just punch em in his"

Okay buddy, wow you heard one part of a situation spun it a million ways over. This particular thing he is bringing up was a fight I was in about almost 20 years ago but still people harp on it to this day and for those who dont know what happened the courts have the most accurate account but probably heard it from the person who was pulled off the floor of the office, needing help to breath but still said he won. First off if your feeling froggy jump and I vaguely remember you, but I bet your still trying to beg girls for a lay, are you still chasing after your own cousin? I'm sorry your second cousin, twice removed kind of so you can guilt her with the "But we are so close thing?" or did you just move onto the usual ratchet junkie? Funny thing I could just call your employer since you were on the clock werent you? In that white truck? Don't worry I know the boss of the store let me see you up there again, I get to talk to your boss and you get to cry in your apartment you are renting with the usual 4 other nobodies I suspect. Running theme if your feeling froggy instead of turning tail and running away after saying that feel free to ask me to step outside, your family will probably put your face on a tshirt you greasy ET, thin lipped, looking shit.

"I beat him up and he didnt even do anything hit him with a-" So baby penis here got mad because he was checked in hockey, hit me with a hockey stick. But he loves to leave out that I said "Okay meet me in the parking lot after school" Where when he seen me, he pissed himself, jumped into his buddys truck and they drove across the little grass median part to get away. You made sure to do this where cops were around huh? I wonder why. I never even got your name pussy but your names now pussy and no I dont give a shit about your rat faced children. Funny enough pussy also ran away from the next day from a black guy after calling him the n word, not just getting expelled but the shit slapped out of him. And if your the black Fed Ex guy who said "I did that too" same situation I went looking didnt see you, you uncle tom siding with the same person who will call you the n-word when your back is turned. Back to Pussy for a second remember sitting next to me there and I popped my elbow up and you flinched, started looking real scared sitting next to me what did I say "Still a pussy" and laughed right at your face. Maybe I should tell your wife Hailey about you cheating on her, Corey knows right? Another woman with the same name? I mean gosh would be terrible if you didnt just fuck up being a volunteer fireman but a marriage too, then again from what I know she is doing all the work and what did you say "If she ever finds out and says anything I will beat her into line?" Wow big tough guy. Sorry you never could take responsibility for your actions, just like the other townies having a family member swoop in one way or another because "Wont let [name] get you into trouble." its okay some people are men, some like to pretend to be ones, some are pussys who just drink cheap beer in a garage while they are too afraid to provide for the family.

Same day had a old teacher bring up this gem of "He never really amounted to anything just plays video games. He would probably say something about not having a fair shot or something. He better not say anything, my boy friends a cop." Ms.Whitebread you are so right I never amounted to anything wasnt like at that time it was my 3rd or 4th year building homes or laying out a road for people to use. I wasted so much time trying to clean up the shoreline, taking care of various family members I am just the worst. Not like I have had more then that one poem published and working on other things, plus compliments from playwrights. I am so worthless I only am paying a mortgage on a home and about to get a second just no success at all. I must contribute absolutely nothing as I sell my own goods and have since right after highschool. Nothing notable at all moving on to another false narrative of yours that all I do is play video games, lets see for that year I got steam right here. 40 hours...3 games, such a waste of time like that adult coloring book you have, not like I am doing it either to learn to edit things huh? I know would "anything" be me getting off of work and downing alcohol? Would it be going trying to shag anything with a pulse? Its a shame to have a hobby that isnt knitting, 3 dollar romance novels, coloring pages or being a judgemental piece of shit huuuuuh? Its okay your one of those cool white woman people love who sneak wine in your knock off yeti cups right? As far as fair shots go, yeah I didnt get them, magically never got promised scholarship, had 4 years of applying where I wasnt hired but did get harrassed by former classmates who worked their, had teachers that gave fuck all about me learning anything or being safe in that school, having to see a application go to a employers hands to see someone who was not the manager take it to a trash can, but I guess thats all fair right? You never had to walk into a store and turn around because your being denied service from someone going "We dont want you heeere." You never had people yell half the things yelled to me in public but I guess it sure looked fun to you so you wanted to join in? Constant harassment is just something that happens right its fair for someone right my opinion of fair shots dont exist when you help set up for it to be that way, couldn't touch the rich kids with punishments, couldn't persecute the sport team members, cant say anything to this one she/he donates to the school, its the same boat, like how you had that LGBTQ safe space thing in your room for the moment one step out to be attempted to be lynched and hanged just outside it but you probably forget about that. So what you did is called slander since its false or theirs another route of well hey I got the Chief of polices phone number in my phone and I can just use your name, he gets him into his office and then he has to tell you to shut your mouth? Which sounds better huh? I am really tired of people doing this loud gossip bs. When he is looking at his phone he isnt looking at job stuff he is shopping the market for someone better.

"I dont think I ever seen him with a girl friend?" I dont think I ever seen you with a boyfriend, again I dont remember your name spray on tan and nepo bitch but here we go. Ironic Nepo Bitch works at a college with racists incidents and was involved in many in the highschool getting out of them of "You know what will happen, you know who my parents are." to get out of stuff. And Spray Tan here I am at my place of work and your doing this, all I remember about you is you and Nepo talking which guy has more money, what places have drugs or beer to party at and how you can take advantage of your mothers Alzheimer's or some shit like that. I remember you dressing like homeless to make fun of poor kids at the school too, plus your sporting a lgbtq rainbow on your dash BS you are not about that. As far as I never having a girlfriend I had 2, both were terrible relationships very unhealthy and thats me being honest, again I am worthless for not having more.

"I would go over and beat his ass but he probably has a weapon or something" Third room mate no its not a weapon, you just have a condition called being a Pussy. You are just afraid of me and thats fine. Its funny how a drug dealer in a poor neighborhood is terrible and thats where everyone expects the opioids to come from not the medical students in the rich one. Your fiancée or girlfriends mom already told me how much of a deadbeat you are/were.

And to paint a picture these previous three had a problem with a special needs adult moving next door to them. (Spray Tan and "He has a weapon")

"Good to see he actually dresses like a adult" I was wearing a shirt I got from trip I went too that had camo on it. Okay two people I dont recognize should I wear the cheap rayban sunglasses, collared shirt, mouth half agape half the time? Or maybe I should only wear real-tree just camo all the time? Wait I need some accessories maybe a DUI would be nice? Maybe a smug expression or those knock off black wrap around shades your lady friends wearing? With her knock off bag? I should just go bald or shave my head too while I am at it right? Look like the most generic southern white catalog collection, hold on I need the fishing shirt on my days off right? I mean god forbid I get another lecture of my hobbies or interests while living here right? Maybe I should only do interests and hobbies that are acceptable by you all like drinking, sports watching, sports games, boring white conversation water cooler talk, verbal lusting, sandbagging random person. Funny you two were in a video and dont even know it being assholes. Thanks again mr. and ms boring wheat thins, I am sure your lives dont have long pauses of silence of maddening time together as you ran out of things to talk about, silently watching a t.v., checking your phone to see when its time to go to bed so the quietness can stop, needing booze to take the edge off of the nothingness until you decide to have a kid or he gets bored enough to ditch you.

I think thats all that came to mind but its a shame when someone tries to do better and have so much going against them. I am old enough to not care about fighting, I am currently out of work but only took the last 2 weeks off from applying. I dont have all the things or as good as material possessions as everyone else but I know I am a good person, better then these skid marks mentioned and what exactly do they want? You want me to assault you so you can have a lawsuit? You just want to take out your insecurities on someone? I know I am very ugly, I know I am not where I want to be in life but I stride to do better but at least I am not like some of my other peers

Losing children to CPS
Having to have a family member pay for me to have a business to say I work
Being a pin on a map (Especially around schools its alarming for this area)
Being a good ol boy (Many hate the term but I rather not be in a seedy network in the sticks to cover up for my own lack of responsibility for my own actions)
Being on drugs
Not having to be supported by family
Not renting
Not being dead
Not selling drugs
Not being on illegal drugs.
Not doing hit and runs.
Not being a general nuisance in the towns
Not raping anyone (Happens more then you think)
Not having to go to AA meetings
Not being involved in a gang
Not having my family have to shame someone into going with me
Not doing "its me or you die alone." angle to someone.

I guess no matter how good I do or try to better myself I will always be looked down upon remembered for one incident, people just make up stuff about me to fill in the blanks, I might not be on top but I felt like this was getting to a point where it needed to be said.

I'm old enough to consider myself a adult, one that missed out on a lot due to others actions but thats fine. I am over trying to please anyone.

This has been the only time in the last 3-4 years I've had a extended break over the 2-3 months of unemployment. Lots of ghost jobs in the area, lots of nepo hires, places that will turn me down, and thats okay. I do side jobs like cleaning yards, cutting trees that usually net me pretty good, plus my side business where I sell goods that has sustained me during slow parts. I have worked 5-6 jobs not counting side ones so not like I wont be hired just the markets slowing down from most reports (Not a conspiracy, research. It happened in 2018)


I will never fit in here, never did then, not now, not ever, but I have my accomplishments and already working toward a dream or two of mine. The area will work against me, it always will; Truly small towns just breed hate and malice towards one another, I am just a easy target but I open my mouth suddenly victim turns bully in these situations.

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ExtraCrabby Other December 27, 2024 at 10:46 pm 0 0