why am i like this

I used to have everything figured out in life. I enjoy learning things, I read a lot, in terms of volume and variety. I took CSE because I wanted to and that's the only thing im good at.

so heads up a week before my college entrance which i spent three years preparing for, i had to experience a medical emergency of a parent. being an only child, i stepped up without it affecting me, and i did not write the exam. my backups were pretty good and i had scholarships, and i am now studying at the best possible option without that exam. i've won a hackathon, been to govt hackathon finals(not sih, these were ministry-specific) made some good connections, published an ieee paper and now on a research project. im in my third year.

somehow, i had the opportunity to get interviewed by a faang company, and i messed up in the final round. i was devastated. and i don't think i fully recovered from it. i have friends, but not close ones. people think im extroverted, which is true i don't have trouble making connections, but i can't have close friends. so ive been looming over this, and its not like everything else is great. (it isn't bad, i have a 8.8 cgpa, and i'll get a good company.) its just that, im unmotivated to do anything, and i wanna get out of that slump, because its been three months. i dont know what to do.

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anonymous Other December 23, 2024 at 12:10 pm 0 1