What I should say to a therapist

I feel like every interaction I have and everything I do is embarrassing and shameful, I regret almost everything I say.
I hate saying the wrong thing, I feel like I look at people for too long or make a face.
I hate being in the way or interrupting.

I don’t like asking for help because how about if they explain it and I still don’t get it.
I hate talking on the phone because I never know how to start or end a conversation.
I fear I don’t talk enough or I talk too much.

As much as I want to be healthy and fit, it takes time and I know I’ll get disheartened and give up.

I’m scared to do something new, because I’ll embarrass myself
I’m boring and bring no new thoughts or things to the world
I am worthless

I feel embarrassed when I don’t hear someone the first time and have to ask them to repeat themselves, they lose the sparkle in their voice the second time.

I feel bad when I forget to laugh at a joke
I can’t even flirt
People think I’m asexual, I just fear people will see through me, think I’m way too confident for someone who looks like me

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anonymous Other November 25, 2023 at 6:38 am 0 0