the other problem is

hardly anyone gives me a chance to say how i feel or it gets shut down v quickly or topic is moved on to the next one or someone else has to take up the whole conversation for something so averagely boring or a woe is them narrative. over and over again i have to experience this blatant lack of respect that people seem to have for me.

at this point i dont care about my life anymore it is impossible to find a solid group of people who take turns to say something instead its always one or two people and everyone else expects rhe quiet people to be loud as they are. i have always been told "thats just how they socialise" so how is it socialising when everyones trying to be the star of the conversations? someone else is always right in their books someone else is wrong someone else is always trying to offend someone else so it is endless and pointless trying to socialise at all.

the only thing im certain of is i will inevitibley die of either boredom or isolation or alienation from people and hopefully sooner than later cause i dont want to be in a carehome at all id rather just die and get this retarded pointless existence over with.

even online its so hit or miss nowadays as to whos going to be nice to you or not so whats the use in the internet if people can no longer be pleasant to converse with its like im always having to choose to be quiet and keep to myself to maintain peace with others who think they have it right all the time or just bc i said something or felt a certain way they had nothing to do with it and it wasnt their fault but it was my fault for yaknow trying to express anything to do with me.

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no one Other April 16, 2024 at 12:29 am 0 0