pretty boy asshole cockblocker

Okay. I was poor white trash. Only in community college because I was poor enough to get a grant that paid for it. Dad didn't finish high school. No one expected shit of me. I didn't expect shit of me. Made me work ultra hard on everything, because I had nowhere to fall.

I was very isolated growing up. Didn't get to go to public school. Got to go to the dead mall in my redneck town on the weekends, in the early afternoon, could do this for like 3ish hours. The adventures I had. Adventures if you count me walking around, yearning for interaction with others, and like always, being around no one my own age. Usually I'd feel worse for even trying, because this was all I could do.

There was one girl I saw while in this area. She was on a scooter. She had some guy riding bitch. The girl had dark blonde hair, acne out the ass on her face, concealer to cover it up, and some glossy shit around her eyes. Tie it up with a dopey, open mouthed expression, and some pop culture t-shirts, and she was the whole package. I thought she was hot as fuck. Looked kinda like Ke$ha when she still looked good.

This girl ended up at the community college too. I'd see her around, and never was able to talk to her. Circumstance made that, but also with how inept and devoid of confidence I was, I could have been stuck in an elevator with her and probably still wouldn't have said anything.

I ended up in a class where she showed up the first day. I was like, holy fuck. The first day I was like two seats from her.

The first week or so, seating kind of fluctuates in classes. I planned to sit next to her and to hopefully get to talk to her.

I get into class the second day, and this pretty boy, preppy asshole was sitting in the spot where I had been on the first day. He had no fucking idea how big of a deal this would have been to my ass, and to someone spoiled like him, I'm sure he was used to always getting his way. He wasn't a Gallagher like me, and certainly wasn't one who was fighting the uphill battle that I was to even have a chance at life.

He didn't like or notice her. I'm sure he probably had her pinned as white trash. This khaki pants, buttoned shirt wearing, smug pretty boy fuck was just in that seat to be closer to the teacher and to kiss ass.

I had a crush on this girl for years. Hated that I did. It was because I knew so few people, so some girl who I (probably projected) as being the same type of white trash that I was who wanted to make it, and that she knew what fucking Back to the Future was was like wow to me. All because of how isolated I was.

I ended up making it through school. Ended up in a line of work that mirrored all of the shit that I thought I was getting away from. Got away from that, and have been adjusting to an increasingly more stable life ever since. I don't do drugs or drink or cover myself in tattoos. None of the retarded vices that those weaker than me love to partake in, when if anyone should be doing it, it's me.

The girl? I've looked at her Facebook page before. Looks like she has done okay. Still hot, kinda dropped the whole scene look, which makes sense given that she's not a teenager anymore.

I doubt me and her would have been able to work. My life was too fucked up and different back in those days. Honestly, my late bloomer ass now would probably be too boring for her. And, I'd probably resent being looked at like "Why doesn't he do this?" when it comes to me not drinking, or for the fact that I really didn't get to have a childhood.

But either way, fuck that guy for sitting in my spot.

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anonymous Relationships February 21, 2026 at 1:45 pm 0 1