My best friend

So I have this online best friend, let's just call her "Blue". she's a great person and Everything I could ask for. And Even tho we're bestfriends, I like her more than a friend. But the thing is she's Aromantic. One time I confessed my feelings to her and ofcourse I don't expect anything in return, she rejected me in glad way. After that we're still friends, she never change, the ways she's like before I confessed to her. Months passed, I found myself liking a boy, K. He also liked me too, we hang out often. But everytime I'm with him I always miss Blue. The way K talk is the way how Blue talk. He reminds me of her all the time. K always made this jokes abt that he's an alien and Blue used to tells me jokes that she's an alien. Also when K confidently always saying he's a fallen angel, that reminds me of Blue. In our friendship roleplay, she'll be the demon fallen angel and I'm her boss. They both giving me word affirmations too. But the difference is Blue always gave me word affirmations with actions. I mean we're just talking online but she cared of me purely. She never went to sleep until I'm still up, She always make sure I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner, When I want to went outside in a middle the night, she always calling to stop me. Even when she's doing something, she still make sure she can talk with me, She can tell me if she's busy and I will understand it but She don't tell me, she always says I'm so special for not giving attention. None of those ever K have done to me. He always says things he said he can do or he will do but at the end he done nothing. After months passed, I saw all his redflags and realized to end things with him. Before,during and after K, Blue always been there for me. She once told me if she can ever be fall inlove,she'll fall for me. We spent our time with each other these past few days. She's always there no matter what. I'm still glad that we're best friends but in another universe maybe if she's not aromantic, she'll be the love my life.

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Claire Crushes May 13, 2025 at 7:13 pm 0 0