Lost interest in life

I have lost interest in life. Most of my energy goes off in day to day activities and survival.

I sometimes feel all alone with one or two real friend who will not betray me. I do not trust people anymore. Some people have evil motives.

I can never meet the expectations of my parents. They are super critical of me every day and multiple times throughout the day. Everything is my fault even when I did not do anything. They are allowed to shout at me and annoy me, but I am not allowed to do the same.

I am expected to meet and date guys I have no interest in because they are picked for me by my parents. If I do not oblige, my parents give me an extremely hard time that is emotional torture.

Building staff keep coming into my condo unit without sending advanced emails each time. I sometimes come back from office or the weekend away to discover marijuana cigarette butts, broken beer bottles and dirty dishes that have been eaten on. Building staff have a lot of power and can make life hell. They have a lot of power in their heads and they are sad little creatures who try to create trouble for the residents. The power has got to them. I am super sweet with them because I do not want more grief. Even RCMP is nice and supportive. I do not know what idea of power, the security building staff are following.

Long story short. I am fed up with life and contemplating suicide.

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anonymous Other July 27, 2024 at 12:24 am 1 0