Life gets better after school

I was in my early 20s. I worked and went to school and would drive about 40 minutes each day to get to work and school. I wanted more than anything to get out of my parents house but was stuck. My mission in those days was to get the hell out and make it through school so I could have a chance at life.

I would walk around the community college after work, just to avoid going "home." I saw a sign one day for a literature group and the first meeting was about thirty minutes from that point. I figured why not just for shits and giggles.

The group was ran by a teacher who seemed very naive and well meaning, like Mr. Vandressen on Beavis and Butthead. The student who ran things was very milktoaste coddled and naive. Internally I was rolling my eyes when she was talking about how the group would look good on a resume, and then her humble bragging about her recent vacation to Norway. There was a girl in this group who I thought was cute.

I ended up going to a couple more meetings, really just to try to get closer to that girl. There was some spring event I volunteered at and I mysteriously didn't make it into any of the pictures.

Next semester I'm leaving the computer lab and see that teacher who led the group. This was the first time I had seen her in a few months at this point. The first time I was alone with her. She was cold and dismissive. Looked at me like I was white trash, something I was used to from the town I grew up in, not the place I was at. I didn't act bad, there was no reason for this bitch to look at me like this, but she did.

I don't know why I was reminded of this today. Reality is if you didn't fit in at school and were just waiting out your time, congratulations you aren't a loser. If you were all about cliques and drama, then you have a rude awakening ahead of you. Losers like that spend the rest of their lives crying over wanting to go back. Meanwhile I knew even at the time that I wasn't going to miss any of it.

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anonymous School March 29, 2025 at 3:39 pm 0 0