JUST EXHAUSTED

Okay sorry but DAMN!!!! It's been awhile since I felt this CRUSHED. Just damn everything that I had to carry and put up with this 2024! I'm so sick and tired of people breaking my trust, running and leaving me behind. I'm so sick of the fact that I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE. To that person.. YOU'RE NOT SORRY BECAUSE YOU'RE OKAY WITH US FALLING APART AND YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO CHOOSE YOURSELF WHEN IT'S NO LONGER CONVENIENT TO HAVE ME AS A PART OF YOUR LIFE AND USE YOUR TRAUMA AND BEING SAD IN GENERAL ALL IN MY EXPENSE. I want to say fuck you for hurting every inch of my soul but shit I'm raised better than that and I still fucking wish you nothing but the best and it's a hard pill to swallow. I wanted to hate you but thank you for saying every best thing I WANTED TO HEAR ABOUT ME- WHICH WILL NEVER SUFFICE BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANNA BE KEPT BY ME ALL ALONG AND JUST TORE ME APART BECAUSE THAT'S EASIER. You forcefully made me give up on us! I won't go into details but I was on a concerning situation that time and you just said sorry you're preoccupied and you broke up right there and then like everything was perfectly templated. You never fought hard for what we had. YOU'RE ONLY SORRY BECAUSE YOU'RE FUCKING GUILTY and I just hate that I would never speak ill of you or anyone because I've loved you deep and that would also be a shame on my end- I'd always claim you so openly. I hope you're happy or it made you happy and you got what you wanted. I just don't think it's fair that after everything you did you expect us to be friends- you made me want to be fine with that. You treat me as if you never loved me and insist for me to be a close friend. If I'm being spiteful I'd say rationalize for what? So you could easily dump me when someone new and better comes and you just string me along until then? I'm sorry but you're freaking cold and ruthless and selfish just damn. I'm not gonna attack you under the profession you're in, do some sort of Ad Hominem but you should know better and you knew to yourself how selfish and insensitive that action was when I was hurting beyond the core in front of you. You just want to free yourself from guilt and I hope soon enough I can just get rid of all this pain that made me wish you just never existed sometimes. But it is what it is.. I can never tell this to you because you'd fell I'm being too much or you'll read it as I'm displacing all my anger and frustration towards you or ignore me; leave me on read and look at me as someone who badly wants you back but don't worry I've gone quite tired, whether good or bad I'll let Karma take over this and handle you.

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KARA Relationships December 25, 2024 at 4:49 am 2 0