Internet friend

Internet friends are not your real friends. It's a hurtful truth, but I'm standing by it.

I had a horrible upbringing. Didn't get to go to public school. Lived in a very strict and stressful house. Barely being able to use the internet was one of my few escapes.

I lived in TV. I ended up becoming friends with someone about my age who liked some of the same stuff as me. Since I knew so few people it was like an oh my God thing that someone else could possibly have known the same TV shows and movies that I did.

We ended up messaging a lot. I remember the excitement and feeling that I could only imagine is common for people who got to have a childhood, of being excited when we talked on Skype this one time. It was like for that one moment I was doing something normal.

The person was kind of a smartass. We talked for a few hours. They seemed kind of into the conversation at times, other times like they were disinterested. Seemed pissed when I had to go.

This person used sock puppet accounts to criticize me. They also would get into some pretty fucked up arguments with people. Needless to say I began to grow weary of them.

I feared them wanting to track me down to steal my shit. Sounds stupid now. Made sense when I was a teenager who lived inside the shit they had, and wouldn't have been able to replace the shit they barely had and want able to work or do things outside of the house. In later years I realized my drug addicted fuck up uncle breaking in caused part of this fear. Fuck him.

Anyway, I distanced myself and finally cut contact with the person. It was the right move to had made. I would occasionally look at their stuff and see how they never changed. All of their friends seemed to be online and most of these friendships ended in falling outs or the other person distancing themselves.

Here's what I don't get. They had more of a life than I did. They got to go to school. They didn't have to sneak around to even be able to use the phone. They came from a little bit more money and didn't life in the middle of nowhere. Yet it's them who are now seemingly obsessed with their childhood.

I guess it's because things were probably somewhat comfortable and happy for them, and that's better than their adult life. Pretending to still be 15 to them is better than the realities of adult life, so they double down on the immersion to pop culture and things of decades past.

Meanwhile with my ass my adult life is 100000X more easy and stable than what I know. Basic liberties and freedoms are no longer impossible. I'm not in constant fear. Huge positive change.

And I've been purging off what I have left of my collection of shit I used to live in. Glad to be doing it.

In hindsight I realize this person was a shitty friend. I was making the best of my situation and wasn't even looking for friendship when I found this person on the forum I used. They on the other hand were seemingly living online due to being a social outcast because they were an asshole.

So, I'm growing into a healthy person and have defied all odds in getting here. They are living obsessively in the past and try to copy the life of this celebrity we liked. One who I know they know is phony.

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anonymous Computers April 06, 2025 at 3:05 pm 0 0