I just love the irony of my boyfriend

I'm fed up with my boyfriend.
Just to set the context, I've been raped when I was 12, now I'm 20 and my boyfriend knows what happened. He helps me a lot and I like it. Where is the hypocrisy then? Whenever I feel down or I want to end myself, bf is here and asks me to tell him EVERYTHING I feel wrong with. But him when I ask him what's wrong? Nope, just "nothing".
We had a marvelous evening watching The Lion King, and right after, wewe had a conversation about the chores at the flat and recycling. I told him he was dumb not to recycle and he started being a bit bitter. Then he went colder and harsher, just because his two shitty friends did not come play Borderlands, like it was MY fault they weren't here...
I don't want to leave him, because he means so much to me and he supports me everytime I am the WORST girlfriend ever but God do I need sometime to smack the door and get out instead of just seeing him watch YouTube coldly and feeling ugly for eating candies (sugar helps me feel better) :/
Also I kinda miss my cat, who is the next best support I've ever had, but I can't just drive the 1 hour from my bf's to my parents' this late (10 pm here) so I kinda needed to rant...

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Emma Relationships January 29, 2020 at 4:10 pm 0 0