I hate myself

I just hate myself so much I feel so fat and I just hate my body so much I wish I had thinner thighs I hate my thunder thighs so much whenever I sit down they get 10x larger and I'm sick of it. Nobody will ever like me back because I'm so fat and ugly it's like I'm never worthy of love I'm never worthy of life I wish I had someone to vent my problems to and I'm so sick of being the fat funny friend I'm tired of fake laughing, fake smiling, faking everything. But deep down I feel so empty and alone in my thoughts and I just wish to be thinner and I just wished someone loved me every time whenever I see people in relationships or my guy friends talking to girls I just feel so insecure of what they have because I'm ugly, unlovable, and too fat for a relationship. I literally hate every inch of myself... I feel sad and numb everyday and sometimes it gets so bad I just wane fucking die. Even the guy who said he was there for me never was there.. Where..? I needed you and you were never there to comfort me... I really needed someone and nobody was ever there for me...? And honestly I just feel so down whenever I see my friends play with other friends because I'm probably just another option and I'm probably nobody's favorite person. I don't feel like I'm ever loved or appreciated enough. And sometimes my friends will judge me for making weird jokes but that's just who I am as a person.. I like making weird ass jokes for fun and it's not like I'm hurting anyone.. right, why does everyone seem to hurt me...? why am I the one who always gets hurt the most.

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Star Body August 06, 2024 at 4:24 am 0 1