let yourself cry. cry. do it. sob your fucking eyes out. if there's absolutely nothing you feel like you can do just let yourself cry. and i'm not saying it makes you feel better, because for me, boy, the fuck it doesn't. but letting yourself cry is just so much better. crying is one of the best feelings when life is shit. and i know when people say "go to god" it doesn't feel like it helps, but i will say maybe try. just a little if you don't really feel like it. i don't know what religion you are or if you pray but prayers really don't have to be special. it doesn't have to be a ritual. just fucking rant to god. tell him how horrible it is. ask him what to do. beg him for answers if you feel like it. you probably won't get an answer soon, maybe not ever. but it will work out eventually. and by "work out," let's be real, does not mean you get a perfect family, perfect brain and perfect life. it means it goes the way it was meant to go in the end. so that's my nonproffessional advice. and i totally agree with the fact that my younger self would be mad at me for just quitting when i already fought so damn hard just to stay here. hang in there, if you have nothing to hang onto, hang onto god. and if you don't wanna hang onto god, though i say you should, hang onto yourself.

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anonymous 2 weeks ago