Fear

I was never quite the type to have crushes, let alone admit to having one. You’re maybe..the third (?) person in my life who I had a crush on and told someone else about it. I know you probably like someone else, or you probably just don’t like me that way. I don’t even know why I like you, aren’t you scared of me? I’ve even put your name and my own in love calculators, in those websites that check if your astrological sign and your partner’s are compatible. I’ve even checked the moon phase of when you were born. I’ve fantasised about you before, or well, a version of you I suppose. I’ve made a playlist about you, I’ve made bracelets in your honour.

Sometimes you pass by me and I can’t help but hope we don’t make eye contact. I’m afraid that others might find out, I’m absolutely terrified that you’ll find out. I hate drawn out, softened rejections, so please never know about how I feel. Just today you passed by me twice, and I can’t get it out of my head. I’ll try to focus on my hobbies, because it makes me happy and temporarily makes me put you out of my mind (though I don’t think that’ll happen anytime soon..) I guess now we’re even, because even I’m a little scared of you now too.

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anonymous Crushes March 10, 2025 at 9:03 am 0 0