Eh

Imma be real I want to work so bad, I want to have these responsibilities, I’m 20 haven’t worked as soon as I was 18 they put me on benefits so I won’t be able to buy my own house until I get a job and a flat ain’t much my taste. Yea I’m different so? I sent so many emails to people ever since I was 18 didn’t any of them reply, I went all around by me but no one is hiring. I’m sorted with money but I just want to work I don’t want to live like this I hate getting treated like a kid I might look young as hell but I want to be taken seriously. But the most all I want is to give back what my parents gave to me, my mum is in her 50 and I haven’t told here but she’s slowly forgetting things I want to make her proud but I’m failing at everything it hurts, I haven’t able to accomplish anything to make her proud that’s my true dream. I stay up most nights like now just silently crying, she always asks me if I’m happy, I mean she’s done beyond amazing to the point it makes me feel so guilty, my answer is always yes because she’s here but truthfully I haven’t felt happiness in a very long time, the only time I feel little happiness is to see her happy. As a daughter how can I repay her? I want her to know how much she truly means to me and how thankful for everything she’s done to me, if a mother or a father I beg what would you want?

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Caitlin Work April 30, 2024 at 5:59 pm 0 0