can't stop thinking about him

worked with him for 1.5 years, he's a lot older, and we both quit 2 weeks ago. haven't talked to him since. i'm always doing stuff for him. getting up early, eating healthy, drinking water, dressing better. it's all for him. for the small chance i might run into him. it's not healthy but he just motivates me to be better. not in a good way, in an im obessive and crazy about him way. i want to improve my health just so he might want me. i know i'm crazy and obsessed and it's unhealthy. he would often say suggestive stuff, he'd always care for me. maybe it was more in a father figure way, but what father figure role asks what type of guys you're into (skinny or muscles or in the middle), that he read an article which says russian girls love indian men (hes indian im russian). i don't know there's just that little hint of creepiness, and then there's the whole thing about how protective he is over me. always telling me to eat, making sure i've had a break, driving me home. i once left work, it was about to start pouring down and i had 4% on my phone and he drove by (doing a delivery) and insisted he drives me home cause i'll get sick. always asks to drive me home. tells me to tell my parents not to pick me up, cause he can drive me home. he lives up north i live south. completely far away. i don't know. i miss him so much.

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wqidfjbqwef Work January 17, 2025 at 9:02 pm 0 0